Coffee Break: June Edition

June is for peace and recovery

This month was honestly a blur for me. I spent the beginning of the month being brutally tortured by Economics and Business Psych. I’m a writer, don’t make me do this real-world stuff. On the bright side, I rotted in bed for the last 2 weeks of the month during my school break. I took the chance to find myself again after being in hell (school) by going back into all my interests. I read more, wrote more, and binge-watched so many shows. I also hung out with the people that mattered to me the most, and it healed me. After my last exam, I met up with my best friends and we screamed our lungs out during a karaoke session. We did musicals we loved, songs we were currently into, and some good 2010s-world-is-ending-songs. A few days back, I went to the beach with a different group of friends who I hadn’t seen in a while either. We ate too much and ranted about our lives. It was everything I needed after whatever May was.

I’ve also been spending more time with my family, trying to find a system that keeps everyone calm. Even after 17 years of my life, this family can’t seem to work with each other. But this month was more peaceful. Everyone seemed to be less irritable, and more patient. It was nice.

I start school again tomorrow and I’m not looking forward to it. It feels soul-draining, like being on the campus just kills all sense of self I have. I’ll leave there an empty shell. I was talking to the girls I went to the beach with, trying to understand why all of us dreaded school, why we simply couldn't click with anyone as well as we did with other friends. We decided it was because we were already satisfied with the relationships we had; the people we surround ourselves with, that we didn’t feel the need to try so hard to know others. It wasn’t because we didn’t want to talk to people, but we just didn’t need it as much. I’m not bothered by the lack of friends in school, I think it just shows how strong my support system is outside of it. I don’t feel like I’m lacking anything in my life.

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my current…

reads:

• Bunny
  - I do NOT know what’s going on. I just finished part 1

  

fav watches:

• Agatha All Along
  - 5 stars. don’t even. this was a masterpiece. i love sexy gay witches

• Wandavision
  - rewatched this after agatha all along, finished it in a day

• Frozen the musical
  - my dad saw it on disney+ and it ended up being so good. why was it so good. why was sven like that. why was olaf- oh my god.

  

  agatha all along

listens:

• A-Lister - Romy Mars

• Untouchable - Taylor Swift

• Summer Forever - Addison Rae

• The Ballad of the Witches’ Road - From the Agatha All Along Soundtrack
  - yes. its so good dont question

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I need to…

buy:

• a life? is that possible

learn:

• to speak Italian
  - i’m kinda putting this on hold right now because i’m easing into school life again.

• to find joy in the things i do

do:

• more writing
  - i’ve been journalling my thoughts down

• more reading
  - consume healthy media and understand the world

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